broken needle

i'm sick since ytd, didnt sleep for whole night, keep thinking these and that... will see doctor abt an hour later as it's still too early.decided to finish the pouch, yet end up breaking the needle, wow, it's the first time i think, so i gotta record it here.

couldnt adjust to working mode since i'm back from SH... like a broken needle, couldnt sew...
dont want to be like this, God pls give me strength n show me Your ways!

the future seems so uncertain, which way should i go or actually do i have ways to choose?
God please dont follow my desire, follow Yours for you know me better than i do.

病了/吃藥後頭腦不清晰... 胡思亂想中 :(
希望事情可快快解決，讓我可以肯定d咁行前面我該行的路!

bean sprouts

bean sprouts - they are tiny and are rarely regarded as the main ingredient in the dishes.

i'm not fond on bean sprouts, dont really like that crunchy texture... esp. when i'm hving the rice noodle, and for me that the rather crunchy bean sprouts mixed in the bowls just simply ruin the paradise in my month. That's why i always ask for skipping them in the restaurants!

i guess i'm not patient enough, therefore God wants me to learn a lesson (many lessons) recently.. As usual, I ask for skipping the bean sprouts when i order my bowl of rice noodle, and it's already the 3rd time, that they are still appear proudly in my bowl... and it drives me nuts... i kept murmuring ... if i am asked whether i need bean sprouts and i said yes, that means i really dun want them, but how come they are still here, and i need to waste my time picking them up while i just couldnt catch them all =.=

okay, i'm still learning to be more patient when it comes to something violating my will/ my desire. but i'm grateful that God makes me realise my short coming :)

But no matter what, i wont giving us having my yummy hot rice noodle ;)

PRAYER

feel like a heavy stone has been put on my heart, cant breathe, cant think, cant help to cry...
want to quit so so much, i just cant stand the pressure, the horrible feeling of helplessness...
just in 2 days, i experienced the feeling from heaven to the hell...

i know the circumstances wont change, what can only be changed is my perception, my attitude towards it. i say my prayer to God, not necessarily to change to environment/ circumstances, but change me, grant me the COURAGE, the WISDOM, the FAITH on HIM, most importantly, the PEACE in my heart that i need the most.

God, please be with me to go through these difficulties, sadness, sorrow. I know i am not alone, with the support from sis & bro, my family and most of all from GOD.

Encouragement :))

在清理電子郵件時，發現一件陳年訊息，傳來的日期是08年7月，標題為「勇於說不」。未打開前，我刻意細想一回，問自己：我為甚麼會保留這個郵件這麼久？難道有甚麼內容是很值得保留？那是甚麼？但任我如何回憶，還是忘了。好奇心驅使我打開此郵件，細閱一遍後，我終於明白保留到今日的意思，上天正指引我，把以下文字覆錄出來，好讓廣大讀者們可以一齊分享。

「我求上天把我的惡習拿掉。上天說：不！怎能是我去『拿掉』，該是你去『捨掉』。

我求上天讓我殘缺的孩子健全。上天說：不！他的靈性圓滿，他的身體只是暫時的。

我求上天賜我耐性。上天說：不！耐性是磨難的副產品，不能被賜予，要從學習而得。

我求上天給我幸福快樂。上天說：不！我祝福你，但幸福愉快是你的選擇。

我求上天免我於痛苦。上天說：不！苦難讓你厭棄塵世的煩憂，讓你更接近我。

我求上天助養我的靈性。上天說：不！你要自己成長，但我會助你修剪荒蕪，富饒你的收成。

我求上天給我所有物質，令我可以享受生活。上天說：不！我給予你生命，為此，你可以享受一切。

我求上天助我，如同祂愛我一般去愛他人。上天說：噢！你終於搞清楚了！」

這篇陳年郵件，我決定繼續在郵箱中保留着，好讓我有一天快將忘記時，又可以再拿出來回味一番。

臨床心理學家
林存湄
9/7/2010

new chapter

first day of my new work, i missed my old time and my lovely ex-colleagues already :(

felt really exhausted today, so many documents/ tables to read and to digest, not sure whether i am really capable/ suit this job... feel really bad now.

Still rmb the first two weeks of my last job, i was also stressed out and down. maybe i just need more time to adapt, to get familiar with figures, comparison, and the whole picture...

i know i will still have some hard time, but i thank god for all these coz it always in hard time that i get close to HIM and to look upon HIM.

i know i am blessed. Gotta be brave, find the focus, keep my spirit up, relax a bit and not pushing myself too harsh. Look upon Him and stand firm!

bon courage :)

le petit nicolas

wow, i was so looking forward to watch this film especially after seeing this poster (the color, the feeling is so right!) and after knowing that Kad Merad plays Nicolas's dad (the postman who moved to Nord-pas-de-calais in "Bienvenue chez les Ch'tis")!

What a pity that we turned out to be watching only 3/5 (or less) of the film due to our works...
but i'm glad that i could still enjoyed this film so so much! those kids are so cute in their shorts and their "innocent" thoughts :) love this movie soooo sooo much! i gotta take Feimooi to watch the film w/ me later during the screening!
c'est trop chouette!!!

Greetings from Guam

received a postcard today!
from Misato, Mari, Eriko, Haruka la fille and Haruka le gars!
i'm so angry! how come they didnt come to HK??
how come they 5 can make it??
i mean squezzing time to travel together, it really is sooooo difficult!
but they made it!
miss them so much :)
i want to fly to Japan!!! or please come to HK!
i reall